Depressed

I know full well that I should study.
I DO.
But I just feel like going to sleep now and sabotaging it.
What's the point of trying to stuff all these information into my head, when its already preoccupied with so many thoughts?
What use is there in writing all these notes, if I'm just gonna be copying blindly?


Somehow, its affecting me more than I thought.
Much more.
Am I not able to let go?
I guess everything just accumulates.




There are two options.
Just go and sleep, at least it will end my misery.
Tomorrow will be a bright new day.
Or drown myself in studies, maybe the only way to go is force.

I have never been this unmotivated to study for an exam before.
It is scaring me.